Saturday, May 17, 2008

I'm really only praying that the words you'll soon be saying might betray the way you feel about me

The unsolved mystery of a neighbour's recent plunge to death is affecting me in mystifying ways. This empathy is probably due to the fact that he had tried to chat me up before, and that i'd occasionally wondered what happened to him when he stopped hanging around or getting high beside our unit. He also happened to look a little like someone i used to care very much about. The rumours surrounding his death make me wonder if this is all people think about these supposed lowlives of society, and naturally i feel a little indignant. What will they say the day my body is found? He would never know this, but we were probably more alike than he would have imagined. Well, but i don't even know his name.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

To vanish into oblivion is easy to do

The account of a man's triumph over his physical condition to set free two of his most valuable assets remaining - his imagination and his memories - The Diving Bell and the Butterfly tells the story of Jean-Dominique Bauby, former editor-in-chief of Elle magazine, who had suffered and miraculously survived a stroke that had "put his brain stem out of action".

Only 43 years old, Jean Do awoke after being in a coma for 3 weeks, to find himself a victim of "locked-in syndrome", whereby nearly his whole body was in a state of paralysis, safe for his left eye, which would become his only way of communicating with the rest of the world. Though dismayed at first, Jean Do eventually came to terms with his condition and even authored a book (of the same title) by "dictating" with his left eye. A publishing assistant took his dictation patiently, alphabet by alphabet, using a special code which his therapist came up with for communication purposes.

The movie begins with Jean Do's point of view, as if placing the viewer in his mind. Only after approximately 20 minutes does the camera pull out and lets us look at Jean Do objectively. Between flashbacks and fantasies we get to know Jean Do more intimately, of the endearing relationship he shared with his father and his children, and also of his greatest regrets. Despite a successful career, Jean Do felt that his life had been nothing but "a string of mistakes", which he likened to knowing the result of a race beforehand but failing to bet on the winner. The women he was unable to love and the moments of happiness he had let slip by.

Despite the sombre plot, the movie retains a sense of humour, by way of Jean Do's cheekiness and sharp wit. Teamed with stunning visuals, a fitting soundtrack, brilliant acting and a moving story, this film, breathtaking and inspiring, is a testament to the greatness and strength of the human spirit and should be watched by every one.

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I watched on YouTube Elliott Smith's performance during the 1997 (or was it 1998?) Oscars, where he first stepped into the limelight with "Miss Misery". It was such a nice and simple delivery. Him in a white suit and guitar, looking rather nervous. At the end of the abridged version (due to programme requirements), he took a bow.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Hopin' you'll come through, too

I guess the bad thing about having something is having to worry about losing it.

Monday, May 05, 2008

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide

My grand future plans include (but are not limited to) the following:

Taking Erhu lessons
Learning how to play the harmonica (my múm-onica)
Winning my first game of Chinese Chess
Finishing up "Notes From Underground" and moving on to more reads
Finishing the 18489934 movies i have to watch "someday"

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Until i saw The Diving Bell and the Butterfly (Le scaphandre et le papillon) last night, i was most mindblown by Persepolis this year. And most disappointed by Harold & Kumar 2 (i really enjoyed Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle). And most weirded out by Taxidermia.